Historically, I have been content to make changes piece by piece. I never had the kind of dramatic desire to turn my life upside down. The kind of desire that would make me a protagonist in a major motion picture. The kind of desire that could cause one to make decisions from which they can never return.

I am completely content with my family life, with my spiritual life, and with my social life. Yet lately I can’t stop thinking about a radical change in one aspect- my career. These past 5 years or so have been a pretty wild roller coaster, yet in many ways I feel like I have returned to the starting point. Like there is a cue of people waiting for a turn in the car.

Sure, 5 years isn’t normally enough to earn professional accolades, but it does tell you a lot. If I can project into the future based on my current rate of progression, I am pretty bored with what I see 10 years from now. Or even 1 year from now.

I am also nearing completion of my educational goals. It is probably time I decide what I really want to be when I grow up. I don’t think it’s what I am doing now. It’s definitely not where I am doing it now.

Yet this experience has afforded me a few opportunities I never would have foreseen.

Entrepreneurship: I have an opportunity getting a job as an entrepreneur. As much as that sounds like a contradiction, it is really what I have been presented with. Security and opportunity for incredible growth? Seems like a dream. Even if the opportunity didn’t pan out, one of these ideas in my head is bound to. So am I convinced I should dive in head first?

Restaurants: I don’t know anything about running a restaurant. Yet lately, I can’t help but feel like I wish I did. But then again, is that just leading me back to entrepreneurship? Yes. It is.

If only I had the sort of conviction I would need to really make something great happen. If only I didn’t get distracted so easily. If only I knew what I really wanted out of a career. I wish I did.